Random Thoughts

• I will be 36 weeks pregnant tomorrow. I have gained about 19 lbs. I don't think I will make it to my due date. I really don't. I would love to make it 2 more weeks. That would be excellent. Maybe even 3 more weeks. I think next week will be my last week of work. I can work, it's not that. I just can't sit this long. Not at my desk. I feel like my hips are being pulled apart. Plus, working 40 hours and commuting 10+ hours is just not leaving enough time in my day to get things done. Important things. I did clean my house really well this weekend. Now, if we can only maintain... which is our biggest challenge. I washed almost all of the baby's clothes. I have to hang a few things on the wall in the nursery. I need a lamp and table. My mother in law said she needs me to give her a weekend to go shopping so she can buy them. Ok... That's so nice. But. That's SO not going to happen. I barely have time to turn around much less spend the day shopping.
• We still haven't thought of a name for this baby. We don't even discuss it. If something doesn't magically come to me when I see her, I am going to be highly disappointed!
• Lennox kept telling me that baby sister could not live with us. Now he has agreed that she can indeed live with us and people can come to visit her. He can also climb into her crib and jump around. He lays down like he is a sleeping baby and declares that he wants to sleep in a crib. He also said he is going to rescue baby sister from her bed. PLEASE tell me that doesn't mean he is going to attempt to throw her or carry her out of the crib on his own. Please God, don't let that happen when my back is turned. Scary!
• My friends and family are so incredibly sweet and thoughtful. They invited me to a Pampered Chef party on Monday night and it turned out to be a surprise shower for the baby. It was so nice but I have a major issue with the "2nd shower." It just makes me feel greedy because people were so generous when I had Lennox. I don't want anyone to buy me more thing but they did it for me anyway and I really do appreciate everyone's thoughtfulness. That was my first surprise party and I seriously had no clue! I will post pictures soon.
• Has a baby ever actually kicked it's way through a woman's abdomenal wall? Just wondering. I think I may go down in history.
• So, my "must get this done" list before the baby arrives is slowly getting checked off. I am 1/2 way through my application with an ECD of Saturday. I did some shadowing this weekend at Urgent Care. I have requested all of my transcripts. I have requested all of my references (including the extremely painful process of asking a person I barely know to write one). I am not making much progress on my class. Oh well. I will get to it. I am taking the GRE on Saturday and I am NERVOUS! I opened the review book, this week... because that's how I do things... and it is not quite as easy as I had imagined. My sister asked me why I do this to myself. This, meaning, procrastinate to the very last minute and then spin myself up into a whirlwind of worry and stress only to come crashing down into tears for days on end. Well, that's me. That's how I have always been. That's probably how I will always be. I have always pulled it out in the end but I must say, that is getting more and more difficult. This PA school process maybe the biggest failure yet.